Hello, November *waves*.
This year is rapidly coming to a close and it’s now time to reflect on October. It wasn’t great, I’ll be completely honest. It’s probably the first time all year that I’ve really tripped up and fallen apart a little bit. But I’m a big girl and I picked myself up and dusted myself off pretty quickly. Let’s take a look and see if I actually managed to achieve any of my [ goals ] amongst the chaos.
On reflection.. I didn’t do too badly. They weren’t exactly big goals, but I’m happy with what I accomplished regardless!
Now on to November.. let me see..
The Wedding – The reason why October sucked so hard was because the treatment plan for my fiance’s cancer went completely tits up and as a result, we either had to cancel or move our wedding. Pushing it back wasn’t an option for numerous reasons and I was not prepared to cancel it. This is OUR day, OUR life and some stupid disease wasn’t going to screw that up for us. So we made the best of a bad situation and brought it forward. I now have 6 weeks rather than 4 months to get everything done. But I’ll do it, I’m a god damn solider and so is my fiance. So now we’re having a Christmas wedding.. pray for a white one and grant us a little miracle aye, universe?
Boss my New Account – I’ve switched accounts at work and have been going through training for the last 2 weeks. I graduated (yey me) and now I’m “live”. It’s really scary for me because I knew my old account inside out.. so having a new one with entirely new systems and new processes has scrambled my brain a bit. But I’m determined to hit my targets, do well and continue to be the best agent I can be.
Lose Weight – I don’t really care how much. I’m just a little upset and worried that I’m going to look like a frump on my wedding day. Yes it’s shallow and narcissistic, sue me? Everyone wants to look beautiful on their wedding day.. and since most eyes are going to be on me I want people to think “wow, she looks stunning”.
I don’t want to look back on the photos and feel that pang of sadness that I didn’t look the way I had hoped. I’ve got 6 weeks to trim down.. any tips? Ha.
Stay Positive – Like I say, it’s been a dark few weeks and I’ve cried, alot. Crying so hard you vomit type crying. But I’m not going back to my old habits and internalising my feelings until they boil over and break me. I’m combating this by seeing the silver lining in the situation we are in, I’ve gotten pretty damn good at this. For example – we’ve saved money, he may get better sooner, it’s made us stronger (yet again), I’ll be married to the love of my life sooner.. so on and so forth. I will continue to see the good in the bad and I will make sure I recognise how I’m feeling and deal with them in a healthy way. Positivity (that word looks wrong?) is key and I will hold onto my little beacon of hope if it kills me.
Christmas – I’m going to try my hardest to be organised this year. I’m running out time and money and I would absolutely hate to do it half arsed. I love giving gifts and I always try my best to make sure the other person loves it as much as I would if it was the other way around. Doesn’t help that most of my family has completely forgotten who their Secret Santa was, so we’re having to start from scratch. We do this every year, hahaha, we’re hopeless.
So that’s it for me. I don’t really want to set myself anything too extravagant because I’ve got A LOT to do this month. But I’d love to hear your goals and if you managed to achieve what you set for yourself in October. Let me know in the comments below ♡