III of Swords
Keywords – Heartbreak, Separation, Grief
III of Swords is an image of grief, loss and literally heartbreak. It depicts separation or betrayal as well as the tragic emotions that come along with such an event. For example loneliness, abandonment or betrayal. The heart is a symbol of love, emotion and affection and what the swords represent varies from deck to deck. However they usually indicate the power to harm, cause pain, and create suffering to what it pierces – such as words or logic – and power to harm to the physical and emotional side of a person.
Upon reflection I would say the card drawn for me this month was pretty accurate too. I was separated from my other half for the majority of February due to treatment needed to try and cure him of his illness. I was managing quite well until about a week ago when the pain and the stress of being apart from him and at such a distance was becoming too painful and my emotional strength was beginning to wain.
We’ve been in this position before so I knew I could cope, but the stakes were a lot higher this time round and I put myself under too much strain to keep the household running, trying to fill the financial gaps, keep up appearances. I’ve mentioned before I have a habit of blocking out things that overwhelm me and usually this is a defense mechanism that works quite well but evidently it bit me in the arse because I pushed myself too hard and needed to recognise I was burnt out, and needed some healing of my own.
Fortunately he is home now (yey!) and came back a few days short of my birthday. It was literally the best present I could have ever asked for, and the weight lifted from me. I appreciate this is still an uphill struggle and we are far from the end.. but I’d like to think the worst is over and the rest of it we can at least face together.
Until next time! ♡